Livre d'Or

If you want to tell me I'm a horrible person for allowing myself to be pressured into going, well, you're probably right.

You're not. You cannot fight everything all the time, and right now wouldn't be the time for this fight even if you could. Nobody can ask you to spend your energy on this given your recent loss, and you shouldn't ask yourself to do it either. (Edit: To be very clear, even without that context you wouldn't be a horrible person, because you still can't fight everything all the time.)